[00:00.000] 作词 : MoMo

[00:01.000] 作曲 : Alton Wang/MoMo

[00:12.363]编曲 Arranger：Alton Wang

[00:30.673]I don't wanna be me

[00:32.177]I don't wanna see in pursuit of material desire ,we cheat

[00:34.931]I don't wanna live with this

[00:36.939]all that filthy tricks

[00:38.695]weep and bleed，that's how we live

[00:40.450]Can't leave cuz it's all the same

[00:41.702]We proud to say we haven't got this way

[00:44.458]We are still all awake so why are we not to blame？

[00:46.461]Who supposed to be that one I gonna hate？

[00:48.217]I hate myself 从过去到现在

[00:50.725]以为在向上却始终在变坏

[00:52.982]I betray myself 把庸俗文字变卖

[00:54.988]自我消耗不顾情绪欠债

[00:57.242]见识了现实难以辨识的欲望考验

[00:58.996]厌世变成在自己身上的具象讨厌

[01:01.435]画了界限想要割裂我所恨的回过神却发现唯独被厌弃的自己站在线外

[01:05.948]我恨我的暴躁易怒恨我的软弱自卑

[01:07.953]截然相反的我争论不休对彼此示威

[01:10.462]我恨我过分细微又没勇气无视是非

[01:12.720]YYHZ的时代高楼易颓人人自危

[01:14.738]我恨我嘴上满不在乎心里注重仪式

[01:16.992]美好碎片注定握不在手心转瞬即逝

[01:18.999]我恨朝令夕改的国王恨愚忠的骑士

[01:21.257]哪里才是包容的**和自由的**

[01:23.263]每到了凌晨辗转反侧站在窗边想要坠落

[01:25.775]我花了几年时间才肯承认自己脆弱

[01:27.780]醉过但没能忘掉什么

[01:29.787]也许你能从我疲倦神色里看见我魂魄

[01:31.793]我怕被看穿也怕没人懂

[01:34.050]神爱世人为什么当我呼唤时神总是没有回应

[01:36.808]父亲说我活着的最大意义是为了延续他的生命抱歉我真的很想违命

[01:40.822]拉锯战旷日持久从未停息

[01:43.078]受够了无止境的品头论足和评析

[01:45.085]停机的号码反正从没电话拨入

[01:46.841]过路行医的人啊救救我吧快解除这漫长刑期

[01:49.854]要怎么自我驯服做自己的dom和sub

[01:52.110]写了无数八个八 还不能Kill her

[01:54.114]或和那渺小女孩握手言和

[01:56.118]只有失眠和自我厌弃在午夜过后联合

[01:58.372]睡眠总是易碎

[02:00.126]真话总被避讳

[02:02.385]越用心越没人品读细味

[02:04.391]肤浅才匹配大众情人地位

[02:06.899]与众不同所以你是异类

[02:09.408]与众不同所以你是异类

[02:11.413]被常人唾骂不该存在的异类

[02:16.172]How to be myself

[02:22.442]How to beat myself

[02:27.209]Tell me how to love me when I hate myself

[02:34.983]How to be myself

[02:40.001]How to beat myself

[02:44.515]Please tell me how

[02:49.787]没错我只是假清高就算说了再多批判也还是期盼靠着梦想吃饭

[02:55.057]就算懒于交际也还是渴望关心渴望友情渴望羁绊像繁茂的枝蔓

[02:59.071]活着总在掩饰 一日在下就要接受检视

[03:03.837]直到习惯成自然 没人站着就没人再提反事

[03:07.849]你可以说我是矛盾体或两面派

[03:09.605]写到这里旧故事停笔 不妨讲现在

[03:11.610]这首写在只睡了两小时的第二个凌晨

[03:14.115]会不会有行人此刻正路过我灵魂

[03:16.123]爱与被爱的人互称情人

[03:17.878]是否爱或被爱却没办法明文

[03:19.828]我还在挤压着疼痛榨取血液行文

[03:22.837]在与自己和解前不入情门