[00:00.00] 作词 : 周震南

[00:01.00] 作曲 : 周震南

[00:02.00] 制作人 : 大迈MizarMin@Audio-Axis

[00:05.00]Part I:

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[00:21.69]I think I’m confused

[00:22.73]My deepest soul is fading and disappearing

[00:24.58]Two people talking

[00:25.64]One showed me how to love

[00:26.23]Another one told me ‘You gotta clean them’

[00:27.90]That’s why people called them

[00:28.87]Angel and demon

[00:29.62]Good versus evil

[00:30.53]I’m afraid to face them

[00:31.02]…I’m suffering!

[00:31.96]That’s what happened

[00:32.82]Every night I have been tortured by pain

[00:34.34]‘We should try to give people more love’

[00:35.87]‘Not my business, …’

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[00:37.42]‘We don’t have any right to judge’

[00:38.83]‘He’s definitely trying to make up a lie for us’

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[00:40.71]‘I’m good with the quit and strove with none’

[00:42.20]‘I’ll be the greatest…’

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[00:43.32]‘I don’t care the money and the fame’

[00:44.87]‘I’m gonna buy the fancy clothes drive the fastest cars’

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[00:46.83]More than 700 days

[00:47.59]I’ve been taking a long rest but I feel more tired

[00:50.64]Tryna calm but sometimes art’s come from my anger

[00:53.75]I believe in …

[00:54.69]Always showing love but I know I’m a liar

[00:56.70]Tryna control violence in my head

[00:58.59]But still wanna clean that …

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[01:00.24]Have you ever doubted your faith?

[01:01.54]And tryna raise a few questions？

[01:03.38]God hath leaden feet, but iron hands

[01:04.98] That’s why I’m confused

[01:06.53]All I see is a lot of people their own life has been taken

[01:09.54]I’m not a Christian but for somehow I’m praying

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[01:15.02]I’m praying

[01:16.83]For everybody

[01:18.28]For you

[01:19.32]For me

[01:20.17]For someone who’s pure and has loyalty

[01:23.03]I’m praying cuz I know it

[01:25.34]People gotta show their true love forever

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[01:37.42]Ok I’m done I feel calm

[01:39.84]Just wanna ask you something

[01:41.42]Things you’ve told me, I found it

[01:43.15]But why is that all wrong？

[01:44.61]I’m confused

[01:45.87]I wonder why the truth is gone

[01:47.75]When I need someone to save me

[01:49.65]Why don’t you respond?

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[01:50.95]Now you blame me for I’m losing soul and faith

[01:53.46]Tell me what’s the price for being a human I gotta pay

[01:56.82]I’m not done yet

[01:57.98]I know there’s something beautiful I gotta find it

[02:00.37]I don’t believe in destiny

[02:01.69]There’s only judge and punish

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[02:03.48]Part II ：

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[02:33.53]如果要杀死一个人

[02:34.77]只能选择用一种凶器

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[02:36.05]让他带着愧疚活着会比利刃更加锋利

[02:38.46]

[02:38.66]选择逃离将我自己封闭

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[02:40.63]仅存的善意正审视着我并发出抗议

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[02:42.76]蜷缩在那沙发边的缝隙

[02:44.94]等待着倒计时

[02:45.76]等待着最后被迫放弃

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[02:47.36]面对这突如其来的痛击

[02:49.16]我无法接受现实

[02:50.41]此刻显得无比抗拒

[02:51.66]盯着破碎不堪的屏幕

[02:52.62]投影出我做错的脸

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[02:53.88]深呼吸以后

[02:54.64]习惯性地闭上我没落的眼

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[02:55.98]安慰自己

[02:56.87]人性有错落的面

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[02:58.11]戒不掉的懦弱

[02:59.05]我一次又一次堕落地捡

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[03:00.58]默默地演

[03:01.40]演一条落魄的犬

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[03:02.37]种种行为都幼稚得像是个未破的茧

[03:04.70]没兑现过的言

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[03:05.71]没能赶上最后一面

[03:06.90]算来算去后悔是否来得太过多了点

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[03:08.95]所以 我试着去弥补这些事呢

[03:11.18]去习惯被人怒吼

[03:12.28]去习惯被人弃舍

[03:13.36]去习惯被人遗忘

[03:14.39]去习惯无能为力

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[03:15.44]想要保护她

[03:16.09]奈何我只是个可悲的戏子

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[03:17.41]是的

[03:18.86]我全部通通记得

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[03:19.94]曾经选择忘记的

[03:20.87]我现在选择记得

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[03:22.23]我现在把我自己剖开

[03:24.02]希望你感到赤诚而不是感到赤裸

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[03:26.33]Part III:

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[03:34.77]我曾经讲出谎言

[03:35.61]试图躲入那些个假话

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[03:37.12]我曾经想要得到同情

[03:38.17]把多处的痛苦夸大

[03:39.08]

[03:39.28]我曾经眼睁睁的看着多数的人被打压

[03:41.08]

[03:41.38]我曾经目睹这一切后做多数人做的哑巴

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[03:43.76]我曾经面对珍视的事说不

[03:45.16]说无伤大雅

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[03:46.00]后来也会想方设法去拖住某一个刹那

[03:47.89]

[03:48.09]我曾经为了让她开心说出编出的大话

[03:50.37]最后没能兑现她告诉我说 没事的 傻瓜

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[03:52.87]曾经逃避那些挫折

[03:53.63]把错误怪罪给爸爸

[03:54.69]曾经把愤怒的情绪过度地带给了妈妈

[03:56.70]曾经看着她痛哭后

[03:57.92]被错付的情绪夹杂

[03:59.05]他们看我的眼神

[04:00.04]从充满爱意到充满了害怕

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[04:01.41]讲到这些犯过的错

[04:02.46]泪流得不止

[04:03.31]我无法挽回这一篇篇

[04:04.47]无法回头的故事

[04:05.43]每一次叫醒自己告诫自己

[04:06.76]最后也如此

[04:07.45]讲出些伪善的借口

[04:08.55]随后又感到很无耻

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[04:09.91]我的神啊

[04:10.96]我无法分清我的善伪

[04:12.09]但是你能否听到我的这一句句忏悔

[04:14.48]每一次失去后来的反悔

[04:16.43]这马后炮的嘴脸现在让我感到反胃

[04:18.64]很惭愧

[04:19.45]我真心感到惭愧

[04:21.07]躲在角落不敢面对的我像个残废

[04:23.74]Wake up wake up wake up and fight

[04:25.65]我不想他们再次为了我悲伤而含泪

[04:25.89] 编曲Music Arranger：大迈MizarMin/Tunga/陈建平

[04:26.13] 音效设计Sound Designer：大迈MizarMin

[04:26.38] 键盘手Keyboard Player：陈建平

[04:26.62] 吉他Guitarist：赵勤

[04:26.87] 钢琴手Pianist：布达佩斯交响乐团

[04:27.11] 交响乐团Symphony Orchestra：布达佩斯交响乐团

[04:27.35] 交响乐助理Orchestra Assitant：Rhett Dahl@Audio-Axis

[04:27.60] 混音师Mixing Engineer：张平@Audio-Axis

[04:27.84] 录音师Recording Engineer：大迈MizarMin @Audio-Axis 匠维音界/周震南

[04:28.09] 和声Back Vocalist：周震南

[04:28.33] 母带Mastering Engineer：张平@Audio-Axis

[04:28.57] 企划Creative Planning：皕卅廿/小虫

[04:28.82] 监制Executive Producer：辛志宇

[04:29.06] 音乐制作 Produced by: 哇唧唧哇娱乐(天津)有限公司 Wajijiwa Entertainment (Tianjin) Co., Ltd.

[04:29.31] 出品/母带版权公司 Pruduction Company/OP：哇唧唧哇娱乐(天津)有限公司 Wajijiwa Entertainment (Tianjin) Co., Ltd.

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