[00:00.00] 作词 : BoyWithUke

[00:00.17] 作曲 : BoyWithUke

[00:00.35]Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand

[00:04.56]But I can't wanted to be your man back then

[00:09.34]And you knew I fell for you

[00:11.51]But you just broke my heart in two

[00:13.84]I was sad mad and broken on my bed

[00:16.57]Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[00:18.72]I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med

[00:20.95]When I was met with a prescription

[00:22.12]Of a bullet made of lead

[00:23.32]And when I woke up in an hour

[00:24.51]In a pool of my own sweat

[00:25.68]I said I swear to God

[00:26.72]I'll never even try to sleep again

[00:27.99]So instead I took my pen

[00:28.99]And started writing evidence

[00:30.16]And when I started making sense

[00:31.27]I found that I had reached the end

[00:32.58]Oh I'm upset I have no friends

[00:33.72]You wanna bet you're just pretend

[00:34.80]You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing

[00:36.63]You're not s**t

[00:37.41]I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways

[00:40.29]I swear I did

[00:41.42]I said I'd talk to people

[00:43.23]'Bout the problematic life I lived

[00:46.06]They were my neighbors razor blades

[00:48.37]And different flavored pills I hit

[00:50.70]Therefore I'm at surely my last straw

[00:53.20]I'm so gassed stuck in the past I said that

[00:56.27]Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand

[01:00.26]But I can't wanted to be your man back then

[01:05.29]And so far I never held you with my arms

[01:07.97]So it's hard to be the one you aren't with

[01:10.46]Instead filled with anxiety always was a part of me

[01:13.81]Guess I'm not cut out to be

[01:14.91]Somebody 'cause it's not me

[01:15.95]I'm not used to all the talking

[01:17.03]Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing

[01:18.94]Used to cope with all my problems using notes

[01:20.79]And lots of rhyming

[01:21.61]Used to hope for better days

[01:22.63]Whenever nights would have me crying

[01:24.03]I'm not lying when I say that

[01:25.18]I would rather die than go back

[01:26.51]To the times I would try

[01:27.50]And be the guy the people know

[01:28.85]As always fighting with

[01:29.69]The demons hiding far behind my eyelids

[01:31.08]On an island full of violence in my head

[01:32.55]I had two pilots

[01:33.57]Oh the sun don't shine and skies turn grey

[01:36.45]I feel it coursing through my veins

[01:38.66]I've said before I'm not okay

[01:41.02]But you don't listen anyway

[01:43.08]You know I tried you turned away

[01:45.47]You straight-up lied right to my face

[01:47.76]You f**ked my life ruined my day

[01:50.29]But you don't know so I'll say

[01:52.54]Nothing can fill this silence no one can love like I did

[01:57.10]Nobody cares you lied it's not fair you still deny it

[02:00.93]So I'll say

[02:01.64]Nothing can fill this silence no one can love like I did

[02:06.37]Nobody cares you lied it's not fair you still deny it

[02:10.18]So I'll say

[02:11.03]Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand

[02:14.98]But I can't wanted to be your man back then

[02:19.82]And too bad I know I can't wake up

[02:22.09]Because I lost my way

[02:23.10]And you don't give a f**k about me

[02:25.41]This could be a dream

[02:26.72]I can't see the things that you see so please oh

[02:29.50]Girl I hope you understand I wanted to hold your hand

[02:33.55]But I can't wanted to be your man back then

[02:38.43]And you had known and played along

[02:40.72]You were my home I wrote you songs

[02:42.95]Now you're dead to me effectively

[02:45.46]Removed yourself outside my dreams